The Physics of Quest

I'm exhausted. For the past two years I've been dealing with this stranger who has done a lot of stupid things in her life. She's been ruling over me now and I'm no more than a jealous, selfish bastard who does nothing but pretend to be happy and contented even if I'm not. Well I am happy. I am happy about the fact that I have a daughter who, I know, loves me so much and a family that understands every single action that I do in my life.

Thinking about them makes me want to work hard for it- for my relationship and over this stranger, but it makes me more exhausted. We used to be so in love with each other and care so much about how the other one feels, that was according to what I believe but I do not know if it was real. Well sometime we believe we know but if we come to think of it the more we know the more we realize that we really don't know anything at all. Now I don't know if I knew or if i knew not.

It's just not working. Us, me, our family. Unless he also wants to work for it. It always takes two to tango and I've done my part.

I guess what I really wanted to know now is to learn the Physics of Quest, learning about myself because it all started from within. I'm completely a stranger to who I am right. I wan to be forgiven, I want to be taken cared of, I want to be LOVED.

I have forgotten about myself.