What do you do when you're alone?
Let me answer this. First I watch movies to kill time, movies that will make me cry bucket of tears because after crying, it is then that I feel better. After quiet sometime of indulging myself in a movie marathon, I call those ones I love to feel a sense of belonging. Quite easy right? With the technology today, there's really a lot of things that we can do when we're alone. But what if, just hypothetically, we're not to use these technology around us, no movie marathon, no internet, no psp, no phone calls and no nothing. Just you and your mere self. This is the hard part.
I have always heard people saying, "It's healthy to have a time for yourself, a moment of reflection and looking back." Well, this time for yourself thing is pathetic, especially, if this has been what you've been doing all the time. It makes one sick. Everything should be taken in moderation.
So, let's go back to the question, what do you do when you're alone? I mean alone like you're really alone, no technology, no nothing.
I reflect. That has become my masterpiece. With all those reflections, I've realized that, NOBODY CARES. No matter how much you mean to somebody and you feel lonely, the feeling won't be mutual. I've learned to not make someone a priority because you'll end up depending your happiness on them. I've learned that understanding is just a word and you can never fully understand someone unless you've had the same life with them. I've realized that I have given too much of me and left nothing for myself. I have isolated myself and I'm afraid to be out in the open again because of what I have become.
In solitude I have celebrated my existence but in loneliness I cursed it!
So Mr. Loneliness, if you can hear me, please stay away from my life. Don't ruin what I have hardly laboured for.
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