Just an Idea

Weddings are fun, I guess, well at least to onlookers which I often am. I never thought it would be more fun when you are the bride. You get to choose your dress, the food, the ring, the venue and the list goes on. It's fun because you influence other people to get a taste of your fashion and of your personality. It's fun not until you realize that your resources are limited, that you work on a budget. But yes, for the most part it's fun.

So while checking everything that needs to be done, I realized that I forgot to insert gift ideas in the invitation. I was thinking of letting our guests know about the gifts that we would like to receive. We would really appreciate gifts but you are NOT OBLIGED to bring one, your PRESENCE is more than enough.

I had to argue with my mom, dad and my groom about the idea of Gift Registry. For the benefit of those whose not familiar with the term, Wikipedia defines it this way,

"A gift registry is a particular type of wish list. Typically, when a recipient compiles a list of items they wish to receive and then hands it out to family and friends, they have created a wish list. A registry, on the other hand, is made public, and is limited to the stock of a given retailer. The retailer will maintain the list for the registrant and make sure that items are removed from the list as they are purchased. Retailers will often not divulge who has purchased the registered items"

My argument is that gift registry and gift ideas are being practiced by most of the people I know that got married and it's really practical. However their arguments is something that I can't discount, gift registries and gift ideas is a practice of people in different culture but not in our culture. We don't want to offend people and we don't want you guys to feel obliged. Our guests vary in belief, there are yuppies, gen x, gen y, there are the conservatives, restrained and laid back, there are also the open minded and adventurous and the NOW people. (With NOW, I mean Facebook active individuals who I guess are open to the idea of gift registry which I will not pursue. I, sometimes, make my own definition of words, so pardon that.)

So what's the point of this long speech?

Simple. I'd like to give you gift ideas. These are the top 5 in our list:

1. Kitchen wares

2. Inspirational books for couples

3. Blankets / Comforter / Pillow

4. Cash :)

5. Appliances

You can also ask us personally or through SMS :) Guys the list is only and idea and you are NOT OBLIGED to bring any. 

-Elrikki 'Cay' Samosino, the Bride

(without the permission of my Groom and if he'd know he might frown)

ANNOUNCEMENT

Honestly, I already dropped the idea of getting married because of our busy schedule until he asked me again, this time with sincerity and eagerness, to get married, off course, I said yes. As you may know we were never really friends when we were younger but Jogjog and I both knew then that there was something special about each other, and as we grew up, we realized that we were meant to grow old together.

We all have waited long enough, but the wait is over. Before we make a formal announcement though, Jogjog and I want to let you know that we have decided to get married during the holidays. There are no specifics yet, but we surely would like you to know. 

Tentative Schedule:

3:00 pm Saturday

December 27, 2014

Kitcharao, Agusan del Norte

-cay

Best Times

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other;for those were some of the best times of my life.

Missing Warlito

December 19, 2012
10:11 PM

We never really we're able to talk the day before you left for training. I have a lot of things to tell you, to ask you to be honest.

Well, let me start by saying I miss you so much. I never really realized how much I miss you, until I tried forgetting you. I have preoccupied myself with a lot of activities and indulged myself to different projects but every time I do, it makes me think of the times and things we do together.

I have never been this prayerful. This Christmas, I really want to be with you but my prayers  is for you to really be safe and okay and well. Anyway, I will see you in April.

It's hard when you want to celebrate love but the one who you want to celebrate it with is out of reach. Every time I hear love songs, I would really burst into tears, I have depended on you too much that I forgot living a life without you in it.

Tay, when you left I was afraid that you would find someone else, I saw a potential 'Karibal' during your oath taking,  but when you called earlier, I was relieved to think that, yes we are a family and you will come back home to me.

"Pablo" scared the hell out of me but my prayers are strong and now you're safe. Thank God.

The times of not hearing from you made me realize how much I really do love you and I want to be with you for the rest of my life.

I miss you a lot! I love you a lot!

5th Year Anniversary

There's nothing to celebrate, nothing special.

End of this blog.

End of the love story.

Loneliness VS Solitude

What do you do when you're alone?

Let me answer this. First I watch movies to kill time, movies that will make me cry bucket of tears because after crying, it is then that I feel better. After quiet sometime of indulging myself in a movie marathon, I call those ones I love to feel a sense of belonging. Quite easy right? With the technology today, there's really a lot of things that we can do when we're alone. But what if, just hypothetically, we're not to use these technology around us, no movie marathon, no internet, no psp, no phone calls and no nothing. Just you and your mere self. This is the hard part.

I have always heard people saying, "It's healthy to have a time for yourself, a moment of reflection and looking back." Well, this time for yourself thing is pathetic, especially, if this has been what you've been doing all the time. It makes one sick. Everything should be taken in moderation.

So, let's go back to the question, what do you do when you're alone? I mean alone like you're really alone, no technology, no nothing.

I reflect. That has become my masterpiece. With all those reflections, I've realized that, NOBODY CARES. No matter how much you mean to somebody and you feel lonely, the feeling won't be mutual. I've learned to not make someone a priority because you'll end up depending your happiness on them. I've learned that understanding is just a word and you can never fully understand someone unless you've had the same life with them. I've realized that I have given too much of me and left nothing for myself. I have isolated myself and I'm afraid to be out in the open again because of what I have become.

In solitude I have celebrated my existence but in loneliness I cursed it!

So Mr. Loneliness, if you can hear me, please stay away from my life. Don't ruin what I have hardly laboured for.

:(

Still my SOMEBODY

Happiness is subjective and as for me, I can only be happy if I I'm with my Yshi, know that she's okay and blissful too; if my family are all right; and if he finally gets to decide what he wants.

We have always been fighting, like always. Some may say that it's just normal since we're already over with the honeymoon phase. Well, I say, ours is different and I'm almost tired of it.

We are the most incompatible couple ever, or are we still couple or have we ever been couple? His idea of family, life and future is poles apart from mine. It breaks my heart because I’ve toiled so hard to make the US work and I've toiled harder to make US work forever. If we're not going to make it through, I do not want another day or any moment with him anymore because it will just make me lament a decade of my life. I'd rather spend it looking for the right one.

Love is commitment, understanding, forgiveness, trust, never self righteous, kindness and patience. But our love is only commitment and nothing else. Well, not really our love is commitment, doubt, misunderstanding, anger, vengeance, doubt, selfishness, rudeness and cruelty. Is this what that decade of knowing each other made us? We’ve aged too much but we’ve never grown up worst is we’ve grown away of each other.

I just want to feel valued. Is that too much to ask? I know I have had my shares of mistake too and I’m trying hard to change myself, to accept him for what he is but maybe it was not hard enough.

I remembered my favorite song…

I want somebody to share, share the rest of my lifeShare my innermost thoughts, know my intimate detailsSomeone who'll stand by my side and give me supportAnd in return she'll get my supportShe will listen to me when I want to speakAbout the world we live in and life in generlThough my views may be wrong, they may even be pervertedShe'll hear me out, and won't easily be convertedTo my way of thinking in fact she'll often disagreeBut at the end of it all she will understand meI want somebody who cares for me passionatelyWith every thought and with every breathSomeone who'll help me see things in a different lightAll the things I detest I will almost likeI don't want to be tied to anyone's stringsI'm carefully trying to steer clear of those thingsBut when I'm asleep I want somebodyWho will put their arms around me, kiss me tenderlyThough things like this make me sickIn a case like this I'll get away with itaaOoh ohhOohAahAfter all, I still want that somebody. I still want him to be that somebody.